| To Grammy and Grampy |
[07 Mar 2006|01:19am] |
I am doin' peachy. Sorry it has been so long since I updated last. I heard ya'll were gettin worried. Thank you for the Valentines day card and such. I hope you two had an awesome Valentines day. Work is a pain, but thats usual. I work quite a bit. But its worth the money :) Not really anything new or exciting goin on down here. Hope everything is great with yall! I miss you guys and I hope to see you soon! Love you!!!!
P.S~Gene Autry (I cant remember school stuff, but I can sure remember that!)
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[26 Jan 2006|10:02am] |
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I havnt updated lately cause there really isnt much to say. I work, sleep, work, on my days off Im with Kevin. My biggest issue is money...but who doesnt have that issue right? I can't wait for the summer to get here. Though once the summer does get here Ill probly be wishing for the winter back. For the first time, today the cold weather actually depresses me. I woke up in a crappy mood, and I cant seem to shake it. The roomates are at class untill 3ish, then they probly have to work. I work at 6...ugh. Im seriously thinking about calling in tomorrow. We'll see what section Im supposed to have. Ive been sick for almost a week now....an extra day off may be in order. I feel like such a bum though. Im goin home next Friday for a day, and two Fridays after that Im goin to G-ville....sooooo excited! I think Im gonna do some statistics so I feel like I accompished SOMETHING today. *sigh* Obvious Im not in a great mood right?
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[17 Jan 2006|10:01pm] |
I feel accomplished today. I woke up with the b/f *sigh* at a pretty early hour. Came home, did some laundry, got my room clean and organized, took a shower, did my entire 1st weeks worth of online statistics, went to dinner with Shauna for some much needed roomie time (Love her love her love her.), and Im about to wash my doggie....cause she needs a bath bad LOL! Everything has been peachy keen around here. Money's tight, but whats new. Work is crazy, nothing new with that either. OK, just keepin the grandparents up to date (I think they are the only ones who keep up with me on this thing anymore, Love you Grammy and Grampy!)
Night yall! ~Kisses~
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[05 Jan 2006|12:58am] |
Anything new lately? Not really. The usual all work, little play. New Years Eve at work was outstanding...and exhausting. Yall read my last entry about the crazy couple upstairs....so I got 2 hours of sleep. Woke up, went to work, where after I set up everything, passed out for an hour in a back booth. Once people started showin up it was cool though. Made decent enough money for one shift. Worked Monday night too. For yall in the Jax area who like 80's music, look up The Little Green Men. They are outstanding...and have quite a following. Anyways, nights they play are always fun. Today started a lil ruff, but ended very very well. Just quality time with the man. Dad (from New Hampshire) and Sue are commin into town on Friday night (boo Ill be working but I have the weekend off to spend with them) and I cant be more excited. :) Yeah! Ok so anyways. I have tomorrow off too....so if anyone is bored during the day, gimme a hollar. I will be doing laundry and cleaning....preparing for their arrival. But I will GLADLY take a brunch, lunch, linner, dinner....(or all of them) break.
~kisses~
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[01 Jan 2006|05:46am] |
So how about this for your ideal situation.
Its New Years Eve, and you work from 6pm-5am.....and have to get up and go to work at 9am the next morning.
So you stroll in from work about 5:30am, your trying to get some sleep....and the couple in the apartment above you are having sex.....very very loudly.......at 5:30 freakin AM!!!
WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE?!?! GO TO BED!
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[29 Dec 2005|01:37pm] |
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I swear, I dont know how Shauna does it. Freakin 11 days straight at work, then drive forevever to Texas, a short lived vacation and then drive alllll the way back then back to the grind. That girl has guts, simply put. Im freakin exhausted from the runnin around Ive been doin. Party Tuesday night was a success, all except for my phone being taken, or me loosing it, or whatever happened. All I know is that the 3 of us have torn this apartment apart at least 5 times, and we cant find it. So now I have to wait for this police officer to call me and give me a police report number for a lost cell phone. THEN I can get a new one. *sigh* My room still isnt really put together or organized yet. I still need to buy my desk, then I think Ill be able to clear it all out.
Home for Christmas was cool. Some family drama as usual. But its to be expected. Spent some good quality time with my sister. Shes growin up and its pissing me off, haha. Got some nice clothes which was awesome, got some $$ too which was even awesomer.
Spent the day with Kevin yesterday. Damn our jobs and their timing. I swear. I really cant say that though, cause we both need our jobs, but seein him once a week sucks. Yeah I know, it could be 10 times worse and I could see him like ever 3 months like alot of the military girls I know have to do. But I went from seein him every day, to twice a week. Grrrrrrr, it could be worse, but it still sucks.
Hopefully work this weekend will just be f-ing outstanding. I need it...but who doesnt need money around times like now?
I hope everyone's Christmas was awesome. And for all of you who are not working New Year's Eve, take a shot of Jack or chug a Budlight for me...I'll be busy getting everyone else hammered.
Love hugs and kisses!
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[27 Dec 2005|09:02pm] |
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Im stressin out....and the only thing I want right now is for him to be here, but that doesnt look likely tonight. :(
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[22 Dec 2005|04:02pm] |
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Im finally moved into the new apartment. Im not completely settled yet, but I will be soon. My cell phone got lost...or stolen...or something the other night at our party. Im flippin out without it. I have to work tonight from 6-close. Then tomorrow night 4-close. Then I go home Saturday morning. Im gonna be exhausted but its all good. Kevin cant come home with me for Christmas....dont remember if I said that already....but booooo. GOnna chill for a few before i gotta leave for work....~kisses~
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[22 Dec 2005|12:23am] |
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Lost my cell phone. Email me at Shellygrl1129@yahoo.com if ya need me. Ill post when I find my phone, or get a new one
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[16 Dec 2005|08:20am] |
So because of two lousy little papers, and (even thought I freakin studied....coulda studied more obviously) a horrible grade on my final....I freakin failed sociology.
Thats right folks, I suck at life. Thats all there is to it *sigh*
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[12 Dec 2005|01:58pm] |
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I never thought Id see the day that I didnt update this thing at least every other day. That was back when I had the time I guess. LOL. From Thursday till Sunday I work or sleep. Literally, thats all I do those days. I go to work till close Thursday night, sleep till noon, work from 4-close, sleep till noon, work from 6-close, sleep till 9am, then work 10-6, then sleep somemore. Mondays, Im back to normal, for the next 3 days anyways, then back to that schedule. Its ruff. But I actually have a good time at this job...for the most part. I traded someone a shift and worked last night. It was Kareoke night, I wanna work more of those. I had sooo much fun with people!
Im still not sure what my grade in Sociology is yet, but Im quite scared cause I know I didnt do great on my final. *sigh* why do I have to suck at life. Next semester Im takin 4 classes....plus this job. Its gonna be ruff. But hopefully my new roomates will help motivate me.
Ah yes...the roomate situation. Im movin out. The girls are gonna write up somethin between them and Nick, and they are gonna sign me off the lease. Shauna and Jorge, I'll be there by Christmas!
Life is good....calm for the moment, but I know better than to get my hopes up.
Hope everyones finals were awesome. Have an awesome break yall!
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[06 Dec 2005|12:33am] |
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Whats up yall. Remember what I said about no drama lately? Yeah, I spoke too soon. Basically if this lease allows me to get out as long as someone else comes in, then Im out. I dont even feel like getting into details, but its some crap...thats all Im gonna say.
New job is cool. Really hard work cause of the hours, but consistant money so its all good. Some mornings, like this past Saturday morning, I feel like I got into a huge fist fight the night before. This past Friday was soooo packed. Everyone and their mother was in town for the VT vs FSU game. I dont really pay THAT much attention to college ball, but I now officially hate FSU fans. When I say that...I mean the roudy ones that give the cool ones a bad name. The bar seemed to be split in 1/2 right down the middle. The back and left side (my section) was VT people, the other 1/2 (the part I have to walk through to get to the service bar) was FSU. The VT would try to make a path for me as I walked past them with a full try of jager bombs or irish car bombs. The FSU half on the other hand would not even take one step to the side. So whenever I pushed past them, I pushed back. And the pushed hard. Even though I would yell excuse me (its loud in there) then tap them on the shoulder and ask them to make a small space for me (its not like im gi-normous people) they would just look at me like I was stupid and Im really surprised I dont have bruises from the pushing. Oh! Then one guy was walking behind me (FSU shirt and hat on) and seeing that I couldnt move anywhere quite yet (it was that packed) he proceeds to push me forward with his 6'3 250 pound body. I had empty glasses on my tray and they fell on the floor. So I tell him to hold on just one sec so I could pick these glasses up so people dont step on them....and what does he do?! He steps on me! I had the foot print on my pants and everything. Full on stepped on me. So I got him thrown out. Dont screw with me at work people, Im too tiny to be puttin up with your drunkin crap.
The b/f started his new job yesterday. Im happy for him cause he's doing something he likes, and wants to further his education with it. Downside....he's freakin exhausted. I totally understand, but I hope either it gets easier or he gets used to it. Cause we GOTTA see eachother sometime!
I got a C in my jazz class. I have my socio exam Wednesday. So tomorrow is spent studying the review sheet. Wish me luck. To all of you college kids goin nuts this week, good luck!
Love, hugs, and kisses!
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[26 Nov 2005|08:50am] |
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Im sorry if I have neglected my lj readers.....if I even have lj readers. Anyways...whats new? School is school...not really new. I got a new job though! Lynches Irish Pub, the most famous Irish Pub in the city! Im so excited about working there. There is never a slow night....and its always packed above max. ::sings:: money money money money.....MONEY! hehe. It's late hours but just a few shifts a week and I work with some awesomly awesome people. My stress level has calmed down some. I rarely see one of my roomates and the other one...well she was never around much anyways but I guess now she is making it a point to not be around the house to "avoid the drama." Well Ill tell yall that I wasnt about to start any drama with her. Just not really say all that much to her I guess. Is that drama? Oh well, I havnt had to deal with any shit lately so Im quite happy about that.
Bubby and I might be movin in together. Thats right, Mishell might be movin to Tampa at the end of the spring semester. No not Brandon, and def not Valrico. But Tampa, a little bit from where I call home, close to USF, and with my bestest friend in the whole wide world. Now I just have to talk a special someone into doing a special something and it'll be all good in the hood.
I drove home for Turkey Day on Wednesday (classes were last minute cancelled by my professors...grrr). Had a good time with the fam on Thursday (it was also my sister's birthday.) Lotsa food, lotsa cake, it was great. Then I did my usual round to Bubby's house, talked to his crazy uncle for a bit, talked about movin in together and headed on home. I was insistant on a full nights rest while I was on my mini vacation. Friday went and saw my grandma, fun as usual (groans). Then headed on back to Jax around 6:30, was in bed by 11:15. Thats why Im up so damn early grrrr.
Well thats about it for now. Im gonna chill today, maybe study a little for jazz, then got work at 6.
Hope everyone had an awesome Thanksgiving! ~Smooches Booches~
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[11 Nov 2005|01:06am] |
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So obviously some people have some issues with me. Thats cool...say it to my face though ok? Dont bad mouth me on some messageing crap and have me read it on my lj. Grrrr...how about I just move away from here and make everyone's life a lil' brighter huh? *sigh* goin to bed before my nerves get too shot.
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[10 Nov 2005|09:20am] |
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In the past week and 1/2 my back has gotten worse, I finally told my roomates live-in boyfriend what I really thought of him, I had my sociology test (dont really know how hot I did), made 590$$ this past weekend at work....and then I got laid off...grrrr. Real quick, the owner of Bukkets decided that when we all went to pick up our paychecks after a fantastic money weekend with the sea and air show at the beach, that he would tell us Bukkets is closing for 10 weeks for remodeling. And that night was our last night open. No advance notice or nothing. So whats a girl to do when for the first time all semester she actually has whole days off?! Well yesterday I went and filled out an application to work with my friend Christen at Kays, and Im about to start getting ready for a job fair at Watson Realty with my friend Melanie. Wish me luck. That would be kinda cool..even if it's just a secretary position. Id get to go to work all dressed up and stuff. Same at Kays too. It'd be really cool if I got either job. My poor b/f, I dont know what he's gonna do. At least if I need it I've got backup help with finances. Not him though. Not alot of the people I worked with at Bukkets. I guess thats what really makes me mad is the people he screwed over the most by shutting down with no notice are the ones who have worked for him the longest. So I told the owner that if one particular manager is there, that I wont be. This is the manager that has ran this place into the ground. He talks to us like we are children who are dumb and dont know how to do our jobs. He's down our throats....all the time for no reason...very very condesending. So I told the owner all that, and that that is why I wouldnt be back. He then asked me if I would tell the manager that. Yup....damn right I will. What are they gonna do....fire me? And they need to know. I flat out told the owner to ask all of his servers, not ONE of us likes working with him...not one. So I let it all out, in a very calm respectable way, and I was proud of myself. Even if it didnt make a difference, at least I know I said it and that I stood up for all the girls who quite because of him over the past months. The roomy's b/f?...We'll just say he is a selfish, narsistic bastard. I dont have time to get into all that, and really, what I just said about him bein selfish is all one really needs to know about the guy. I gotta start gettin ready. Smooches Booches
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*sigh* Work work work...blah blah blah....school school school....blah blah blah. I think I got at least a B on my Jazz exam...yeah for me. Got a sociology exam in a week....boooo. I gotta remember birthdays this week. The 26th is Jackie's and the 27th is Larry's. Of course Im the youngin of the group. Anyways, in other news...Friday night....aka 1:40am Saturday morning I feel on the stairs and hurt my back at work. Oh joy. They ask if I want an ambulance, I said no. They told me if it gets worse to go to the E.R. I go home and pass out, I have to open the next morning. So with a killer pain in my back and 7 hours of restless sleep I stumble into work, only for it to be the slowest Saturday ever. I had 1 table in 2 and 1/2 hours, so they sent me home. Im thinkin that my back is just sore, that when you fall and land on stairs your gonna be sore. Well when I wake up yesterday morning, its a pain from my shoulders all the way down to my hips...makin it hard to walk or move my arms around (which basically means I cant talk then...lol) So I go into work anyways cause Im thinkin I cant afford not to work. I tell my manager who was there the night I fell that Im gonna go to the hospital as soon as I get off work. So he proceeds to bitch me out telling me Im irresponsable for not goin sooner. Well ya know what?! All I hear about from you is how short handed we are and how it absolutly sucks when people call out and dont already have other people covering for them. So kiss my ass Richard....jack hole. Grrrrr. So he told me just to go home. I left, and Sarah came with me to the hospital E.R. I hate hospitals, always have, always will. I got to wear this really cool gown though and got to ride in a wheel chair for the first time. All in all, it wasnt that bad. They took some x-rays, said the bones were fine, perscribed me some muscle relaxers and told me if it wasnt better in 2 days to go see some soft tissue specialist. But Im ok for now...I think.
Just got back from halloween shopping with Sarah. We are gonna be the hottest pirates in Jax beach, lemme' tell ya. LOL! Im so excited. I have an hour and 1/2 to kill before Im supposed to meet up with my man so I think im gonna watch some T.V. Peace out yall!
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[17 Oct 2005|06:45pm] |
Grammy and Grampy
It was awesome getting to talk to you two tonight. I miss both of you so much and love you even more. Can't wait for my next visit! Love, hugs, and kisses!
P.S~ Gene Autry
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[15 Oct 2005|12:06pm] |
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Guess it's time I updated. Things have been alright I guess. Im consumed by work....grrr. Days I have to go to this job, its so hard to wake up in the morning. Then it ruins my whole day cause I sleep till hella late if I can. Like I now, I just really woke up and I have to go to work in 3 hours. *Sigh* Im hungry, sorry, random thought. I really REALLY need to go out and get another job. Cause I just cant take this one anymore.
Ok, enough with negative ranting. Everything else is pretty peachy keen. Kevin and I are peachy, and he may POSSIBLY be coming home with me for Thanksgiving. Me and the roomates are pretty straight, basically because I throw my hands up when it comes to anything in this house, I give up. So I try not to stress over it anymore. My car is ok. Transimition is still messed up but it runs. New job may equal new car.
Ok, off to get ready for work, grab somethin to eat out somewhere and then actually go to work. *sigh*
Text me please, tonight is gonna be hellish.
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[10 Oct 2005|03:11am] |
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Everything is good in the hood.
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Im trying very hard NOT to completely fall back into the person I was a while ago. That being in terms of a relationship. So when I work hard to not freak out and over exagerate things in my head...DO NOT act like you still know whats going on up there. DO NOT assume that my thought process is still that way. DO NOT think that since I was a little wacked out in the head about stuff for a few weeks that that means that is how Im gonna be from here on out. Especially when it is blatenly obvious that I've been trying very hard to stay calm and not let things get the best of me, especially when these things happen while Im stressed out at work. And yet, you purposly try to make me jealous, purposly try to get me mad. And when I dont specifically get just jealous or just mad, when I seem hurt it's "oh god, thats so dumb, your reading too much into it." Well I believed that for a while, which was good. I DID look too hard into some things and DID get overly emotional over absolutly nothing. But not lately. Its lately I have realized you say some stuff on purpose. Why? Do you find it humorous? Does it make you feel like more of a man? Does it make you feel like you have the upper hand in the relationship because you have that power? Remember how I told you, that me realizing that you could have that kind of power over me scares the hell out of me? That the last time I let into that power I completly changed who I was, without his or my realizing it? I made it very clear that I wanted no games. You say it's not a game...but it is. So I tell you this, pour my heart out over the entire situation and what do you do?.....you take advantage of it?! Holy hell! I mean seriously. I figured you were past this bull shit. And maybe your ex girlfriends didnt really care, or were too tuff to be effected by the things that you say sometimes. But I will openly admit....I am not that tuff. I figured in telling you that that it would make you a little more understanding to the way I feel, a little more sensitive, compasionate even. Yeah, that was wrong. I could scream, seriously. I want to break down and cry, but I know that if I do that all I will be doing is letting your stupid words and attempts at upsetting me win. So I refuse to cry, scream, or punch something....no matter how much I want to. Maybe the way you were today is because you werent feeling well, maybe the way you have been for the past week is because your stressed out at work. Maybe some of the things you say to me to purposly upset me or make me jealous are to make you feel like you have some sort of control over SOMETHING in your life. Well let me tell you....my emotions WILL NOT be your puppet, giving up to your every demand. You want to feel extra wanted?...so you say things to make me jealous. You want to make sure your not getting too close?...so you say things to make me mad. Yeah, seems like a pretty easy plan, pretty good idea....for a highschooler. Maybe all your exes were immature, or NOT more mature than their age. Some may not agree with me, but I have matured beyond my age in the past few years. Immatureity would allow that kind of control, would let it effect their every mind set. Not me, not now. I dont relye on other people for my happiness...and if that is what I have become...than I need to take a step back. And I know Im right on all this. I may not always be right, but I know I've nailed it on the head here. I wont let myself cry, I wont let myself be hurt........
....but it still hurts
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